It all began when my cute little sister persuaded me to go through her updated blog.. ROLLER COASTER the latest of her serious (quite unlike her and like me) topics, which as usual put me through some past...

My roller still remains but the caosters seems to be derailed where it was at the highest(presumably) and still in the to meet the mother earth in a state which only genorisity of the mother would decide..

Meeting Bebo ( remenber her from my previous posts, if not then don't worry lot of is it still to come) was a story in itself, after the last semi-heartbreak more from my side then from her other than the former coming after she told me look if you dont say anything "Am off with someone who is ready to fight with his parents or rest of the world for me and you never mention about doing such a thing" and me like ME said " Well entirely your choice whom you want to be with"(Another of my dunb principles of life where i leave it for the fair people to decide even though i have always know that could be disastrous). Anywaysi still live by it.. so the story of meeting Bebo, when i had thought no more of the fair people in my life till i am thrusted to hold one, tick tick tick on net and just watching the profile.. which said female.. no not interested.. and then the magic happened tick tick tick scraps from the other end.. still nah not for me.. then something more happened just a courtsey reply to the scrap which was thought to be so harmless.. then kya phone nos passes hands and then phone calls, rather some courtsey calls and then it became routine.. Good friends were in the air.. Then came the agni pariksha, another nice person in the picture and again as the person i am " Your Choice" well and that is just not taken as i intend it to be taken, requirement of some time for me to meet, think and decide so by then Kareena Kapoor train gets missed..

Then Bebo gets into"HAPPILY EVER AFTER" and the flowers reach her which were always thought of to be given, every single time she would have crossed the mind, but just the thought that these actions should not baise her thoughts in choosing between people who would be taking care of her through out the life.... and ME who believes in making a world which not to duplicate things which others have done but leave a mark of ME, so always in the place where there is a race for something very dear to me, its always goes for me that if it is for me i shall get it always and everytime.. Not many people know the person i intend showing to others and my true self, only the people who have spent time with me knowing me and seeing me grow, have shared thicks and thins of my life snce i was a child might me able to say who i really am, as projected for being a magnanimous person and actually being not is just like being a mouse saying can roar like a lion rather i say be like cool cat and when the need arises kill like no one is going to be spared, A TRUE FIGHTER... not that impressing people is hard for me, just a few lines from the books or a movie and the other side is just head over heals.. but the actual might comes when just to see a smile eight hours of journey in which you say yourself " AARAM SE CHALA ELSE THIS IS GOING TO BE THE END FOR YOU".... and like me thinking again that if a person can be happy and smiling in the cruelest of all times he is the most stable of all and so i try to give the hardest times and if then someone chooses to part ways its best for her..

The most hurting thing is when the other person just ignores your presence and never cares to ask if i reached alive back home....

Still my conscience says NICE PEOPLE GET NICE ONES so she has got some one nice and it really gives me satisfaction, the only thing which comes to my mind but the next thing which antagonises me is changes brought about by this.. no more calls, no more friendships, no more knowing how you are and i think this is what life is all about... Cheers to the spirit of life....